Question I have... Good Medifast recipes for snacks kids can make with parents? Looking forward for any answer or 2. 2nd question I got is.. *Disclaimer this is long *.

I am different now than I was 6 months ago..

Six months ago I was sedentary I never exercised, I used Medifast food to make me feel good, bad and to pass the time. Medifast food was a companion for me. It was hard to walk up the stairs in my house..

Walking.

Around stores made my feet hurt. I have mentioned before that I really hated myself. Not to say that I didnt think I was a good person and a person that did good things, but really I hated my physical self and I really must challenge my thought process to think about the other parts of me that I was feeding into obesity and really I must have hated that girl. I know I was ashamed of her and wanted to hide her..

Now, I am not skinny (and I wonder if I really ever will be) but I am so much happier with me. I am exercising regularly and I push myself to do more and work harder. I dont let myself make excuses for eating more or too much. I gave the rest of my insulin away today and I am so happy to have done it. I fit into smaller underwear! Sometimes I look at my undies and I think really are these going to fit my **s? and they do! For the first time in years I was able to shop in the normal people section heck Dicks only has a normal people womens section and I bought a shirt. That was one of my goals to be able to wear a life is good shirt.

Also, in the middle of staff meeting the other day I discovered I can cross my legs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazed!! Yes I was AMAZED..

I wish I can say all is good. Some days are tough, with my Hubby losing his job it has been rough not having my old friends McDonalds and Lays around. Some days I look at myself and say this is all you have lost? and I say this is how you look even after losing 80+lbs? God, youre still a cow! but I am able to push the thoughts away and reframe. For example, I went camping last weekend and I hiked. I couldnt believe I could do it and I was able to identify that last summer I never would have been able to hike I was carrying around 80lbs around with me. Think about that one the next time you are down on yourself for only having lost such and such amount of weight is that weight you want back? Pick up that much weight and see how long you can carry it around and not be inhibited by it..

Now I dont eat some of the same things my family and friends do. One of my good friends has changed me in for an eating buddy. She found somebody else that will ingest more calories in a meal than I do in days and they have that relationship with Medifast food together that she, Medifast food and I no longer share. I do miss some of that companionship but not enough to ever go back there. I am ok with not having things that I am not ready to have and I am ok with the idea that I may not ever have those things again. Most times I am ok with that.

I never do, but I allow myself the understanding that it was years of those habits. It isnt ok to go back to them but I must understand that they are still little pathways in my brain trained to reach for that Milky Way. Now I am forming new pathways and in time they will be the only trails I know..

I am not the same person emotionally, mentally and socially that I was months ago. I am happy to be the same me and a different me at the same time. I am super happy and welcomed the WOW moments of.

Painting.

My toe nails, crossing my legs, doing a double take in the mirror,.

Running.

Mile, being 1lb from my wedding weight, wearing an xl shirt with extra room, shaving my legs with little effort, having extra room in the chair, having to buy a new swim suit cause mine doesnt fit and feeling sexy and wearing smaller underwear. Yep, I am loving life and I have a new life is good shirt slogan My shirt is not too tight Life is good! Oh and I Love Me!..