Quick question: What are some really good homeade catfish Medifast recipes? Thanks in advance for any response. Another question... The past two weeks have been pretty tough weight loss wise. I had a plateau which in all reality sucked. I knew one would come and I figured it would be tough. Being on the support site I had heard about them and I had thought about what I would do when one came, but with the best laid plans I still reacted.

I only had 4lbs to go and man did I want it to be a 4lb week, but the scale would not cooperate, my body wasnt ready and I have struggled mentally.

I tried getting it all in perspective looking at if I needed more calories, more water, different.

Exercise.

Etc. but no change. So I held my breath so to speak and kept going. I was *wicked* negative at times and my Hubby had to be my cheerleader and he did, he would tell me how far I have come and how good I look and ask about how I feel and honestly I just wanted him to shut up so I could be pissed about not losing, but I knew he meant well so I took his words and tried to keep perspective..

Some things that happened when I was busy being pissy about not losing weight.. SIZE 16 yep! Even in the store with not only one random pair of pants that have some stretch to them but almost all pants I tried on. I am pretty psyched about that that is about 5 sizes smaller than my biggest size pants I was in a 26 in my largest pants but most often a 24. I still have 18s that fit well but let me tell you being in 16s is amazing. I think it has been about 10 years since I have been in 16s. Another thing that happened while I was in self loathing? I got tons of praise about how good I look people told me I have small arms, that I was wasting away to nothing, that they were proud of me and that I looked HEALTHIER THAN EVER.



Last night I went out with a friend that I have been friends with for 16 years. She and I have been through so much together. I actually say we survived our 20s together. I was really nervous to see her as I havent seen her since Christmas time and I was afraid she would think that I have lost enough or didnt look good. I was the exact opposite (can anyone say projecting your thoughts about yourself onto others?) For one thing she says I look awesome, she is happy for me and she got goose bumps when I told her how much weight I had lost. I told her about all the things I can do now that I couldnt before.

She started asking questions that were less about me and more about the.

Surgery.

And I knew what she was thinking. I became an ambassador for her and she shared she has been thinking about it for awhile and has done an informational session already. She is the only person that knows exactly how much I weighed and what I weigh today. I have never told any of my *real life friends* (not support group friends) how much I weigh it was too embarrassing. But she asked me out right (in a way only a good friend that also weighs over 200lbs can) are you under the 200 mark yet? I was able to share that I am 1lb away. It was an incredible night.

And we helped each other. I needed to share all about the road I have been on and she needed to hear about it. I will tell you that it also boosted my esteem to know that I weigh less than she does and I am smaller than she is. I have not eve r been smaller than her she has always had a couple to several sizes on me. So, not in a bragging sort of way or in way that wants her to be large, I feel damn good about me.

I have always been bigger so I know what it feels like to be bigger and I am not.

Running.

Around telling everyone (well maybe my hubby and my mom) that I am smaller but it is certainly a WOW moment for me..

And you know what happened this morning when I stepped on the scale? The first time it said 199.6, the next 200lb, the next 198.6 (should have stopped there), the next 200 and I stopped because either way I am there if I took that average of all of them (and I did) I am under 200 pounds today, just slightly under but I am under. The heavens didnt open up, I didnt yell and scream and carry on. I really think it is because of the triumph I felt last night. Dont get me wrong I want to be under 200lbs for the rest of my life and I think it rocks really I do. The perspective that I got from last nights conversation actually beat out hitting under 200 which I must tell you is more than surprising. Because all I have wanted for years is to be less than 200 and in some ways I got that today.

But for today I am smaller, I weigh less, I move more, I take only supplements (no diabetes meds) and I feel amazing...